My day was horrible. My stomach has never hurt this bad my whole life. All I wanted to do was sleep so I didn't have to deal with the pain. This day really sucked. I also never cried so much in my life. This is the most I have cried since I have had cancer. Why does this have to happen to me? I am really sad. I just wished this didn't happen to me. My stomach still hurts. I want it to go away. Nothing comforts me but when my mom tickles my back and my dad cracks stupid jokes. I tried taking about 4 baths today to help ease the pain. It helped for one second. This is just horrible and I would never wish this on my worse enemy. I was going to hang out with some friends today and I wanted to sooooo bad but I just wasn't able to. I just do not understand why this is happening to me. Now I am off to Sonic to get a slushy with my mom. Then to sleep. I hope. That's it.
I want thank Kristi and Kylie for designing these T-Shirts. At first I didn't want my name on the shirt. I really do not like having the attention on me. But, after I saw them I really liked them. Thank you Kristi and Kylie. Also, thank you so much Vicki and Dale for making the t-shirts, you did a great job. I just love them. Thank you!!! This has been really hard on me. I wish I felt better and I want my healthy body back. I miss hanging out with my friends and doing the things I like. I also do not like it when I feel sick. The blisters in my throat and mouth are gone right now, but when I take chemo again I know they will come back. It has been nice feeling good these last few days. I haven't had to have chemo this week because of the scans. It is such a good feeling to feel good again. I never really appreciated my healthy body till now. The chemo makes me feel horrible. I have no energy. I feel nauseous all the time and I get horrible headaches. They hurt so bad. I get s
I'm so sorry you had such a hard day! And you know what? It does suck. Anytime I think about you, those are the words that run through my mind.... "Geeze, that just SUCKS!!". But you are so strong, Kolby. You've already pushed through this much. Keep it up and be strong. You have sooo many people rooting for you and praying for you. I hope you have a better day today and get to hang out with some friends.
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Kolby, I am SO sorry! I'm glad you shared your thoughts. It's times like this when you need everyone's prayers even MORE!
ReplyDeleteLove you! I really really hope that as I type this, you're feeling better than when you posted the post.
Kolby -
ReplyDeleteI don't understand why this has happened either. None of it makes sense in my mind and it hardly seems fair. I'm so sorry for all of the physical and emotional pain that you must endure. It breaks my heart!
I truly hope that you are able to find some relief today and maybe even have a moment of joy. I also hope that you're able to hang out with your friends sometime soon. That would surely lift your spirits!
Kolby, This does really suck. Cancer sucks. I am so sorry that this is happening to you and wish that I could make it go away. I am so glad that you are sharing how you really feel. You need to get those feelings out and just know that we all do care about you and want to know how you are feeling good or bad. We pray for you everyday, throughout the day. So many of us love you, pray for you and are rooting for you in this fight. Thank you again for sharing your feelings. I pray that you are having a better day today and are able to spend some much needed time with good friends. Just know how loved you are. Especially by our heavenly Father. You are such an awesome young woman. Keep fighting your fight and just know that you have a HUGE army behind you in this fight. We love you and God bless you
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry Kolby!! I hope you feel much better tomorrow. Lots of love and prayers.
ReplyDeleteLove ya Kolbers.
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