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A Day I Want To Forget...

My day was horrible. My stomach has never hurt this bad my whole life. All I wanted to do was sleep so I didn't have to deal with the pain. This day really sucked. I also never cried so much in my life. This is the most I have cried since I have had cancer. Why does this have to happen to me? I am really sad. I just wished this didn't happen to me. My stomach still hurts. I want it to go away. Nothing comforts me but when my mom tickles my back and my dad cracks stupid jokes. I tried taking about 4 baths today to help ease the pain. It helped for one second. This is just horrible and I would never wish this on my worse enemy. I was going to hang out with some friends today and I wanted to sooooo bad but I just wasn't able to. I just do not understand why this is happening to me. Now I am off to Sonic to get a slushy with my mom. Then to sleep. I hope. That's it.

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  1. Rebecca HuntJuly 6, 2010 at 6:05 AM

    I'm so sorry you had such a hard day! And you know what? It does suck. Anytime I think about you, those are the words that run through my mind.... "Geeze, that just SUCKS!!". But you are so strong, Kolby. You've already pushed through this much. Keep it up and be strong. You have sooo many people rooting for you and praying for you. I hope you have a better day today and get to hang out with some friends.
    ♥ Rebecca

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  2. TaraleeJuly 6, 2010 at 10:36 AM

    Kolby, I am SO sorry! I'm glad you shared your thoughts. It's times like this when you need everyone's prayers even MORE!

    Love you! I really really hope that as I type this, you're feeling better than when you posted the post.

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  3. LeahJuly 6, 2010 at 10:53 AM

    Kolby -

    I don't understand why this has happened either. None of it makes sense in my mind and it hardly seems fair. I'm so sorry for all of the physical and emotional pain that you must endure. It breaks my heart!

    I truly hope that you are able to find some relief today and maybe even have a moment of joy. I also hope that you're able to hang out with your friends sometime soon. That would surely lift your spirits!

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  4. Stella RinconJuly 6, 2010 at 12:23 PM

    Kolby, This does really suck. Cancer sucks. I am so sorry that this is happening to you and wish that I could make it go away. I am so glad that you are sharing how you really feel. You need to get those feelings out and just know that we all do care about you and want to know how you are feeling good or bad. We pray for you everyday, throughout the day. So many of us love you, pray for you and are rooting for you in this fight. Thank you again for sharing your feelings. I pray that you are having a better day today and are able to spend some much needed time with good friends. Just know how loved you are. Especially by our heavenly Father. You are such an awesome young woman. Keep fighting your fight and just know that you have a HUGE army behind you in this fight. We love you and God bless you

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  5. Kristin ChesnikJuly 6, 2010 at 8:34 PM

    I am so sorry Kolby!! I hope you feel much better tomorrow. Lots of love and prayers.

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  6. CarolynJuly 6, 2010 at 9:08 PM

    Love ya Kolbers.

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