Kolby and I fell asleep on the couch last night watching a movie. She woke up around 1:00 in the morning and wanted to go to her own bed. I got up with her and she took several steps and she just fell over and tumbled flat on the ground. Kolby cried so hard. She said she didn't have any control over her body and she couldn't stop the fall. I felt so bad for her. Her dad even woke up from the sound of the fall. He lifted her up and we helped her into her bed. She cried and cried.
Kolby doesn't like cuddling. If I could I would sleep with her everynight just to make sure she was ok. She tells me that I need her more than she needs me...accompanied with a little giggle. But I cannot help but to want to take care of her....and oh how I wish I could take all this away from her. But instead, she let me tickle her back and arms until she fell asleep. It is heartbreaking watching your child suffer from pain and disease. I just pleaded with my Heavenly Father to take all my guardian angels that watch over me and give them to her. The next morning, which is today, Kolby woke up with another splitting headache. It took everything she had to get ready to go to the doctors for her 2nd chemo treatment and spinal tap. She dry-heaved and cried and cried and cried. When she went to the doctors they weighed her and she weights only 88 pounds. Before she was sick she weighed 105 pounds...and she is 5ft. 4in. tall. But you know what? She is still as beautiful as ever! I love you Kolbsters!
Kolby doesn't like cuddling. If I could I would sleep with her everynight just to make sure she was ok. She tells me that I need her more than she needs me...accompanied with a little giggle. But I cannot help but to want to take care of her....and oh how I wish I could take all this away from her. But instead, she let me tickle her back and arms until she fell asleep. It is heartbreaking watching your child suffer from pain and disease. I just pleaded with my Heavenly Father to take all my guardian angels that watch over me and give them to her. The next morning, which is today, Kolby woke up with another splitting headache. It took everything she had to get ready to go to the doctors for her 2nd chemo treatment and spinal tap. She dry-heaved and cried and cried and cried. When she went to the doctors they weighed her and she weights only 88 pounds. Before she was sick she weighed 105 pounds...and she is 5ft. 4in. tall. But you know what? She is still as beautiful as ever! I love you Kolbsters!
Oh, I am just so sorry! I think about Kolby SO much and she is in every single prayer of mine. I love this girl! Kolby, you are an amazing girl and I have always ALWAYS thought so!
ReplyDeleteI'm so happy that you started this blog. I have been unsure whether calling or stopping by would be a bother so I have opted to just give some space for now. I appreciate that I can get some updates from this blog. I'm rarely on FB so I've been quite out of the loop. Thanks for taking the time to update everyone through this blog. Our prayers are with you!!!
Taralee, your the first to post a comment. I was so excited! This is great therapy to work on. She will loves this one day. I wish she would write down her feelings, she said she will one day, so I am trying to track this journey for her. I just love ya. And Kolby loves you to. You can stop by anytime you want. We would love to visit with you. Love ya!!! I am glad you like the blog.
ReplyDeleteWe are thinking about and praying for you. We love you guys. Hang in there Kolb's, be strong. Your tender, pure heart inspires me. Please let us know if we can do anything. Anything.
ReplyDeleteI have no words other than I am thinking about you and your family!
ReplyDeletexoxo Natale` Mouer
I'm totally crying, knowing that I would feel exactly the same way (wanting God to protect my kid even if not me). Kolby, we think the world of you and are so sad for your pain.
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